Finding the Beauty amongst the chaos
Is there anything crazier than our current situation? The mother in me longs for you to have your sessions, and document these fleeting moments. The photographer in me longs for a creative outlet and to continue to work on my art. To be honest I'd had one the toughest weeks in my life. I'm not an anxious person but I felt myself becoming overwhelmed at so many changes so quickly.
I found myself thinking deeply, about what really matters, what I really miss, and how I can adjust to our new normal. I realised we can survive without the steady income I had been receiving from working from the dance studio. Yes it was nice, but for now we can live without it. Do I miss my freedom? Absolutely, the beach is my happy place, or so I thought. I realised I had become way to attached to the calmness of the water and the gentle breeze on my face. I realised how much I love the home we have and that I can use this opportunity to enjoy it to the fullest.
I dearly miss all my friends and family, but I am grateful we can video call, and that I am lucky enough to be surrounded by so many wonderful, honest loving people in my life.
I'm grateful that if I am to be in one place, for most of my hours, it is with my crazy adorable children, and my husband. I can breathe when he's here. I have spent many hours taking deep breathes and trying really hard not to loose my mind when the girls are being difficult. But I've also acknowledged they are struggling to adjust too. If I am going to be graceful towards myself, and forgiving when I am not patient, then I also need to allow them some grace when they are having a hard time too.
And lastly I acknowledged that I do not want to stop taking photos. I can take photos of the girls all day long, but that is only part of what I love. I love the connection, the connection with other mothers, the family connections I am lucky to witness, and the pure beauty of love on my screen.
So with the help of a beautiful young mama, who is doing her best at home with her two little ones during this hectic season, I was able to put together my first "no contact" session.
Even though we didn't come into physical contact, the session filled my heart. Helped me feel like myself again and gave this mama something to look forward to.
I can honestly say it was one of my favourite sessions so far, and I just loved being able to connect in a whole new way.